I had black, sticky goo sensation in my belly. During the somatic session we learned that it was a memory from childhood when my mom wanted me to zip up her dress but it was too small for her. As I was trying so hard to get the zipper up, my mom was lashing out and blaming me for the dress not zipping. I felt shame inside my body and a deep sense of "not being good enough." I have carried this around with me my entire life and through these sessions I have been slowly reclaiming the parts of me that felt not good enough and not worthy. 

I had a constriction in my chest that felt like an elephant was on my chest. I couldn't take a deep breath. As we did the somatic session the memory came up from when I was in college and a guy I liked asked me on a date. When it came time for the date I was excited and looking forward to it. It turned out that he brought me to a weight loss network marketing meeting and I was mortified, angry and embarrassed. In the session, Meggie had me tell him off, shove him away from me and say what I didn't get to say twenty years ago. I could feel the tension and constriction slowly lessening in my body. That memory had been stored for decades and it felt good to give my body what it needed--but didn't get during the date from hell. 

During my session, I had an anxious and tight sensation in my belly. As we explored the sensation, it was tied to when I found out my husband was having an affair. When it happened I was devastated and couldn't get out of bed. As we sat with the sensation, it was tied to a part of me that felt unloveable and not good enough--always feeling the need to prove myself and my worth--especially in my toxic marriage. When we sat with that version of me and I was able to give her some much love, compassion and support that anxiousness and tightness dissipated and I felt a part of me that I had shoved away come back home and be accepted. I am enough and I was able to give the past version of me what she needed during one of the hardest and most challenging times of my life. I am proud of her-- and me.